I am not liking this. My interest is not in it any more. The small drizzle did not help, if anything it made the drought worse. I am being teased and questioned at every turn. And I was doing so good too. I am back to the beginning again. Why is it that I had to torture myself. Obviously I didn't learn my lesson earlier. This new year is not starting out well. The void is constantly getting bigger. The old ways of coping are not enough and are draining my resources. Great, more fuel to the fire. There is still one more option that I will take. I really hope it helps. I know I am stronger than this!!
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